Happy Father's Day to all you Dads out there!

This is the first dad's day since my Dad died in September, it is also the first day since my birthday that I have really mourned that he isn't here. My birthday was tough because it was so soon after his passing and it was still very strange to not talk to him when I talked to Mom and especially so on my birthday. He was not my father he was my dad, daddy at times even though I am nearly 40 years old. No could love me better than he could. I have some wonderful memories from my childhood of he and I together. Walking Candy in Singapore, OK so one time I got bitten by a monkey but even that memory is a good 9 at least there is a story to tell)I remember recognising him without seeing him from the sound of his footfall and the sound of his cough. Of all the people in world I wanted my Dad to be proud of me. He died before that could happen. One of the hardest things about his death for me is that knowledge. he died right in the middle of one of my biggest screw ups. I still not done getting beyond that screw up but I am making progress on it and I think he would be proud of what I have done. I know he loved me Ijust wish he could have been proud of what i had done in my life. I was proud of him. I love him and miss him.
Love you Daddy.