of migraines, size 12s and hodge podge

So if you have ever had a true migraine, you understand it is more than just a "bad headache" but for those of you who haven't let me explain a bit about them. They are debilitating, they make functioning if not impossible nearly impossible. They can cause nausea, foggy brain cells, sensitivity to light, noise, and movement not just to bright light, loud noises, and major movements. I am talking where blinking hurts, you don't want to breath because the movement involved in doing so hurts, your hair hurts. For me I get migraines maybe once every couple of years lately, used to be much more often than that but I have learned how to avoid or prevent them but still every so often WHAM! I get hit with one. Sometimes it is environmental factors but mostly it is more just plain old stress that causes them for me now. For me migraines are not a slow building thing they are a WHAM! There you go kind of thing. Yesterday morning I awoke in good time to get to work on time but for some reason moved really slowly and ended up an hour late couldn't tell you why until about 15 minutes after arriving at work when...WHAM! There she was the migraine of all migraines! My theory on being late is that I felt the migraine coming on and was moving slowly because of it trying to prevent it's on set. It didn't work. I ended up leaving work after a really bad 3 hours, would have left immediately but couldn't deal with light well enough to drive so stayed and did a little work in the meantime. Of course ended up in a confrontation of sorts with Pinkie, who is my boss ( I guess, maybe my supervisor? I don't know anyway she is the one I am there to help). I was in major pain, heck my hair hurt, trying to function, having a hard time understanding anything and moving really slow at anything I was doing. She took it as laziness or I don't know and we ended up having a few words and things were not any better by the time I did leave but I really didn't have it in me to try to explain more than I had or to try to understand her point of view. SIGH! I hate it when things like this happen because it is sooooo hard to fix. There isn't a right or wrong it is all about feelings and apologising for feeling sick or feeling put out or feeling hurt or feeling whatever she and I felt just isn't what needs doing. Good or bad feelings just are, now the way we react to our feelings that is a different story. But I don't think either one of us was really reacting badly to our feelings so again that makes getting past this difficult. I think I was not feeling good at all and was distressed because I knew I needed to leave but I also needed to work needed to get in my hours so that didn't help my migraine at all. It was viscous circle of pain for me yesterday. This morning when I got up after sleeping most of nearly 15 hours I still had the migraine it was nearly gone but still there waiting to blow up again so I called into work took more medicine and went back to bed for a few more hours. then spent the rest of the day resting and relaxing and getting the migraine gone. So tomorrow hopefully all remaining effects of the migraine will be history and when I return to work I will do so with a smile, energy, and ability to do what is asked of me. I hope those of you who have never experienced a migraine never do, and those of you who have I am sorry and hope you receive the comfort and care you need during them.
Now to the size 12s... No I am not really in size 12s yet BUT today I tried on some of the clothes my mom brought when she came a few weeks ago most of which were 10s, and 12s. Now most of them do not fit BUT there was a skirt size 10 that I can actually put on and if I had a long enough shirt could wear. AND there is a pair of size 12 gaucho pants that fit again not well but they fit. All this is a miracle a year ago I wouldn't have even gotten one leg in that skirt much less my hips and waist and to be able to put it on...WOW! To be able to button and zip pants that size well I haven't been able to do that since high school. granted in high school they looked better than they do right now but I can do it! WOW!!! Maybe by the end of June they will actually fit me to where I can wear them without having to hid anything.
Thinking about taking some ballroom dance classes and or joining a gym...need to add something to my workout life and to my life in general...but as much as I want to take ballroom the gym is probably the better investment right now...also thinking about getting a gun permit and learning how to shoot a gun...always have wanted to learn to shoot since I was like 8 or 9 years old. But maybe I will just do the bow and arrow thing used to love shooting a bow could be fun to learn to do that well. I am going to be growing wheat grass and sprouting wheat here soon. Probably get it set up this weekend. Hopefully this weekend or sooner will be moving forward with the bathroom remodeling... I need to "float" my dry wall along with getting help to remove the mirror thingy and priming and painting but if I can get help with the mirror and the floating part then the priming and painting won't take long. Friday night I go to see Harry Conick Jr!! Thanks to Sweet Pea for that one!