Changes Are Good -- I Guess

So everywhere I look there are changes going on and a lot of them in the mirror! Problem is I am not sure they are happening in my brain yet! I see the changes but I don't somehow believe them to be real or true. Weird huh? I see my neck gaining definition and becoming a neck, I see my waistline appearing and my hips shrinking, I feel the looseness of my clothes and know the sizes I have dropped but somehow I am still in my mind HUGE. Just kind of can't catch my brain up with my body in this weight loss thing. At times I do realise it I am doing more "girly" things like wearing more makeup, doing my nails (heck I have nails to do!), being concerned about whether my shoes match and getting heals because some outfits just need them! Pinkie made the observation the other day that she is getting faster at getting ready and I am taking longer. I think it is because I do, on some level, feel the difference, I am feeling prettier so I display prettier I guess. I still am not wearing a ton of makeup probably never will but I am more concerned about things like lipstick which will please my Mom to no end! :) Plus I take more time to do my hair on non important days. I mean it used to be I would spend time on my hair for church and a few other important things but mostly it was just wash-n-go. So I guess my brain is catching the spirit of this whole thing it is just moving more slowly along than my body is.
Some cool things I have recently observed or done....
My neck and shoulders are gaining defiition
My calves are toning and shrinking and no longer rubbing together
I have a ribcage! No ribs yet but a ribcage!
My pre-surgery clothes are falling off of me
The pants I bought 6 weeks after surgery so I would be wearing button pants at the doctors I can now remove without unbuttoning!
You can enjoy exercise not just for what it helps you do but because it is fun! (O.K. I may be insane!)
Smiling and laughing in public are fun
I have become much more bold in the things I say (maybe a bit too bold wouldn't you say Pinkie?)
With the boldness is a sense of dignity too I fight a bit more for me Maybe "fight" isn't the right word...it is probably more that I stand up for myself more.
Friday is my next appointment. I am a bit concerned because of being sick that my weight loss will strick him as being too much but otherwise I am not worried about this visit at all and I expect it to be longer before my next visit. I believe we may have finally hit what is known as the sweet spot with my fill. I am also thinking that at this visit I will be at the halfway mark thanks to being sick. :) We shall see.