Home again!

Each day post surgery is bringing more and more excitement! As I really begin to believe I actually did it! Part of me keeps expecting to wake up and discover it is monday night and I haven't had the surgery yet or that I never got it even scheduled and all this has been a dream. I guess part of that is because it is such a major event for me my life will never be the same again.
I'm going to share a little of my journey to this point...
For most of my life have struggled with weight issues and with issues of depression. So Last year I decided to do something about the depression and get some help. I knew that until I took care of the depression the weight would never have a chance. It took a year of hard work to get to the causitive factors in my depression but finally I was able to begin shaking off the overwhelming feeling of depression and despair and allow myself to be happy, excited, joyful, and even sad, angry, and a whole bunch of other emotions - to actually feel them. When that breakthrough happened I knew I would be able to conquer the weight but I also knew my window of opportunity for doing so without surgical intervention was gone. Not that I couldn't lose the weight but I have so much to lose that any conventional meathod , of which I have tried many, would take too long for my health to be saved. So I began searching investigating the various medical meathods of weight loss. I actually have several friends who have had weight loss surgeries so had a good group for figuring out what way I wanted to go. Was able to find out some of the "real" pit falls of the different meathods. I knew what my heart was telling me certain ones were too drastic and for me not an option but the banding that had potential. I found a doctor that was up in my neck of the woods and went to a seminar and my mind was set. I knew what I was doing and who was going to do it. I just had to make all the arrangements cross all the "t"'s and dot all the "i"'s so to speak.
Now that it has happened it is kind of like the lifting of my depression I keep waiting for the other shoe to drop (like waking up and finding out it didn't happen). Thing is there is no other shoe to drop so I will stop waiting for it! :)