Anniversary

Tomorrow is my 6 month mark! Wow what a difference 6 months can make. It has been quite the ride. Mostly it has been an enjoyable fun ride but there have been some scary and uncomfortable points.
scary was this night 6 months ago, the eve of surgery. I was excited and scared to death! I knew it would all be fine, I trusted my surgeon, I had a priesthood blessing, and even before that had had confirmed to me that this was what I needed to do and all would be fine. HOWEVER, that did not stop me from being scared that I would fail that somehow the surgery would not work because of me. More scary was waking up from the surgery, I had never been under before and was not expecting the pull of the void that wanted to keep me out. It was a very freaky thing especially since without my glasses I could not even begin to try to focus on something in this realm to keep me here. I was calmed by the attendant who was completely unconcerned about how I was coming out and kept telling me I was doing fine, I figured if this was not fairly normal there would be more concern and more people around. Then when my glasses were returned I was really able to start fighting the void of unconsciousness with my wakeful brain. scary has been a few of my post op appointments like the first fill appointment where the fear was simply because I did not know what to expect.
Uncomfortable comes in every time I eat too fast or just about every time I have to tell a waiter for the third time that I don't want anything to drink and yes that includes water! I always feel like I am making a scene and that makes me uncomfortable.
All of that adds up to really nothing on the scale of life when compared with the joys and pleasures of the journey.
The pleasure of walking and walking and walking and NOT being tired or having ankle and foot pain. The joy of dancing my booty off all night long! The pleasure of getting rid of clothes that are too big and fitting in clothes that I wasn't able to before. The joy at the ability to sit in a booth comfortably, go through a turn stile, sit in theatre seats comfortably, and be able to get past people in aisles. Overall it has been a fantastic journey!